Healing from past wounds? Doable. Letting go of the past? Still doable. Forgiving people that have hurt you in the past, also very doable.
But, what about trying to heal from things that are still happening? Things that you tried so f-ing hard to fix, things that you cried and begged from the bottom of your being to try help. What do you do when the people (or “parents” in this case) you are pleading with not only dismiss and deny your very VERY valid concerns, but actively laugh behind your back at the pain you feel, and at the hurt you hold in your heart. How do you heal from that?
The last near two weeks have been some of the hardest I, along with my oldest sister (18) have had to deal with. Our other sisters are trapped in a shitty toxic environment with a mother who won’t drop her ego for a second to see the damage she is doing, and a stepfather who can’t put his anger down for a moment in order to listen to his children's concerns and fears. What do you do when you fear for the life and sanity of your 14 year old sister who your “parents” have ruined? When they won’t hear you out even when you, and your sister as grown adults beg them to stop and listen for a second, and try to show them the errors they are making. Even when you keep calm, and say it nicely and don’t attack them. What when they still wont listen, and laugh behind your backs and mock…